Today I learned another symptom of pregnancy...I'll call it m/s. Morning Sickness? no. Mood Swings.
Now I have noticed Catherine getting a little teary for a few days, but I didn't comment on it. Truth be told, she has these weepy tendancies. Goddess forbid, if I called attention to them BEFORE this, I would get a verbal smackdown involvign my coldness and insensitivity. Since its partly true, I never really minded. Well, Catherine DP (thats During Pregnancy) has been given to weepies. The other day while recounting a story about a hard working student I saw them leak out. But I said nothing!
Today we are talking and Catherine aplogized for being so sleepy. I told her that it was very understandable, and I appreciated all of the sacrifices she was making for our family. Though I miss her (due to work schedule and a hefty napping schedule) I was fine with it, and that she had no cause for worry. Uh oh. The tears. Just a few.
I console, explain that its to be expected, I know its hard, etc. More tears. Crap.
I explain again. No listening. Just tears. Eventually they wind down. Phew! I joke a little, and get her to laugh. Then I did the wrong thing... I doodled a sad face with tears on a scrap of paper to make her laugh. It didn't make her laugh.
From here it was a ping pong game of emotions. Tears as she exclaims "you drew me with a sad face!" and giggles as she realizes how silly she sounds...I try patience, then I do let a little laughter slip. It was funny! Seeing a grown woman weep over a doodle of a crying woman! Deep in her heart, even she knew this! Hence the laughter and tears. Boing, Boing, Set, Serve!
She eventually recovered by scribbling on me with the pen with which I had been doodling. We laughed, and went to eat dinner. There was a little whining about dinner vs. sleeping (on Catherine's part, oh yee of little faith!) but all was well. After some food and relaxing, even Catherine could look back and laugh at her moods!
Its gonna be a long 35 weeks! :)
Friday, July 13, 2007
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Procrastination
Well, today has been about cooking, surfing the net, and doing basically anything I can think of OTHER than the work that I should be doing. This is very unlike me! I am a work before pleasure sort. A few days of liesure and I am wont to do anything else!
Oh well, I won't deny reality any longer!
Just a quick check in. Things are going well. Catherine is very tired today, and napped for 3 hours AND went to bed at 8:30. She was a little more nauseas today, but she is hanging in there. It is the first real back to work day that she has had since school got out. That alone is exhausting.
I am also pondering how to tell people that Catherine is pregnant. In particular, a friend who has had trouble ttc. I know how painful it was for me to hear of other pregnancies. I hate causing that pain to someone else. Ergh.
Oh well, I won't deny reality any longer!
Just a quick check in. Things are going well. Catherine is very tired today, and napped for 3 hours AND went to bed at 8:30. She was a little more nauseas today, but she is hanging in there. It is the first real back to work day that she has had since school got out. That alone is exhausting.
I am also pondering how to tell people that Catherine is pregnant. In particular, a friend who has had trouble ttc. I know how painful it was for me to hear of other pregnancies. I hate causing that pain to someone else. Ergh.
Thursday, July 5, 2007
Things to look forward to...
So today Catherine went in for her hCg and things look great!! 533! Our baby is so advanced already!
We are so excited, we went out and bought the timeless: What to Expect When you are Expecting. I am also determined to make sure Catherine is eating well. I am becoming down-right domestic! I made a big grocery list, and we went to Whole Foods to buy things like wheat germ and whole wheat flour. Catherine even ate some yogurt! (Confession: She realized later it was yogurt made from Water Buffalo milk...I kid you not. It was actually quite good and very high in Omega-3s. She wished she didn't find that out, but she promised to continue eating it as it was tasty.)
She has a little nausea, but seems better when she is eating small things more often. I made a delicious lemon chicken on the grill tonight. It was my first foray into grilling, and I thought I was going to light the house on fire, but dinner (and the house) was fine!
Now it is waiting, but a different, more exciting wait! We have our ultrasound on the 20th. I can't believe we will be in our 6th week then! Since they count from the date of last mentral period, Catherine is considered 4 weeks pregnant today, though she only conceived two weeks ago. I, personally, think that this means that our baby is very advanced, and has aged four weeks while only being in existence for two. Go us!
We watched a documentary on R famly vacations, and once again tears were shed. I can't wait to go on one of them!
As for the things to look forward to, well...
Catherine's breast development has started. Now it is only a development of color, but it promises so much! haha!
We are so excited, we went out and bought the timeless: What to Expect When you are Expecting. I am also determined to make sure Catherine is eating well. I am becoming down-right domestic! I made a big grocery list, and we went to Whole Foods to buy things like wheat germ and whole wheat flour. Catherine even ate some yogurt! (Confession: She realized later it was yogurt made from Water Buffalo milk...I kid you not. It was actually quite good and very high in Omega-3s. She wished she didn't find that out, but she promised to continue eating it as it was tasty.)
She has a little nausea, but seems better when she is eating small things more often. I made a delicious lemon chicken on the grill tonight. It was my first foray into grilling, and I thought I was going to light the house on fire, but dinner (and the house) was fine!
Now it is waiting, but a different, more exciting wait! We have our ultrasound on the 20th. I can't believe we will be in our 6th week then! Since they count from the date of last mentral period, Catherine is considered 4 weeks pregnant today, though she only conceived two weeks ago. I, personally, think that this means that our baby is very advanced, and has aged four weeks while only being in existence for two. Go us!
We watched a documentary on R famly vacations, and once again tears were shed. I can't wait to go on one of them!
As for the things to look forward to, well...
Catherine's breast development has started. Now it is only a development of color, but it promises so much! haha!
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
I am a sap.
OK, I admit it, I am a sap. Today I watched "If These Walls Could Talk pt. II." After drooling over the tres hot Chloe Sivigny and the loverly Michelle Williams, I succumbed and watched the Ellen and Sharon Stone episode. I admit it. I cried. Just a little.
This is sinking in now. Its real.
Her blood elvels looked good...a high hCG. The say it isn't necessary, but I want Catherine to get another one on Thursday so we can compare.
And see- I am already better at blogging!
This is sinking in now. Its real.
Her blood elvels looked good...a high hCG. The say it isn't necessary, but I want Catherine to get another one on Thursday so we can compare.
And see- I am already better at blogging!
Monday, July 2, 2007
A True MITM
I know I have been silent for a while. I wish I could have been better, but it was hard to read about my hopes and then post about my sadness.
But now...
I am truly a Mom in the making!!! Catherine is pregnant! We are going to have a baby! I am so nervous and scared and ecstatic and shocked! We had planned on trying IVF, but we needed two more iui's to have it covered by insurance. We were so good about not obsessing over every ache, pain, or twinge of nausea. Then, lo and behold...a positive on Saturday mornings test!
I used to imagine what it would be like. Would Cat tell me? Would we call my mom? Would we scream? cry? hear it from a blood test? In the end, it went like this:
Catherine thought about POAS on friday night. I said, go ahead. I wasn't very excited, neither was she, so I assured her I wouldn't be crushed this time. I was just waiting for IVF. We looked, and there was a hint of a line, but nothing we could call a positive. We shrugged it off. I didn't really obsess over it. I mentioned it to my mom, but we had low hopes and no expectations. On Saturday we slept until 9:00. Catherine said she wasn't sure she would test, and I said to go ahead and try it. When she came back I asked "anything?" She said, "yea...I think its a negative." I was annoyed, because that wasn't something, it was a nothing. Why did she say yes. Then she said, "wait, come look at this." I went over and saw a line that had appeared. Unlike previous tests that make a plus, the "key" to this test said a positive was just a line. We looked some more, and went to ask my mother. Cautious optimism!
Later that day, Catherine bought 10 more tests. Yes, ten. She tried two of them and I heard her say "wow!" Clear blue easy digitial said it loud and clear: pregnant! Since then she has taken all 10 tests, and they all agree. She is pregnant!!!!
We went to our doctor today and got the "welcome to the first trimester" packet of info. We have bought 2 pregnancy books and have planned how to save money, buy a car, and more. We are shocked and happy...and I am also so scared!
I am so scared of wanting this so much. I am so scared that it might not be real. Please be real! Please be healthy!! I have read so many scary stories, I have to remind myself that people DO get pregnant and DO carry their babies to a happy, healthy 9 mos.
Our due date is 3/14....pi day! It MUST be fate!
Goddess, watch over us now! We need it! I dont care about anything, as long as my wife and our baby are healthy and happy!
I want to be better about this journal, but everything seems a little easier, if not a whole lot scarier, now!
But now...
I am truly a Mom in the making!!! Catherine is pregnant! We are going to have a baby! I am so nervous and scared and ecstatic and shocked! We had planned on trying IVF, but we needed two more iui's to have it covered by insurance. We were so good about not obsessing over every ache, pain, or twinge of nausea. Then, lo and behold...a positive on Saturday mornings test!
I used to imagine what it would be like. Would Cat tell me? Would we call my mom? Would we scream? cry? hear it from a blood test? In the end, it went like this:
Catherine thought about POAS on friday night. I said, go ahead. I wasn't very excited, neither was she, so I assured her I wouldn't be crushed this time. I was just waiting for IVF. We looked, and there was a hint of a line, but nothing we could call a positive. We shrugged it off. I didn't really obsess over it. I mentioned it to my mom, but we had low hopes and no expectations. On Saturday we slept until 9:00. Catherine said she wasn't sure she would test, and I said to go ahead and try it. When she came back I asked "anything?" She said, "yea...I think its a negative." I was annoyed, because that wasn't something, it was a nothing. Why did she say yes. Then she said, "wait, come look at this." I went over and saw a line that had appeared. Unlike previous tests that make a plus, the "key" to this test said a positive was just a line. We looked some more, and went to ask my mother. Cautious optimism!
Later that day, Catherine bought 10 more tests. Yes, ten. She tried two of them and I heard her say "wow!" Clear blue easy digitial said it loud and clear: pregnant! Since then she has taken all 10 tests, and they all agree. She is pregnant!!!!
We went to our doctor today and got the "welcome to the first trimester" packet of info. We have bought 2 pregnancy books and have planned how to save money, buy a car, and more. We are shocked and happy...and I am also so scared!
I am so scared of wanting this so much. I am so scared that it might not be real. Please be real! Please be healthy!! I have read so many scary stories, I have to remind myself that people DO get pregnant and DO carry their babies to a happy, healthy 9 mos.
Our due date is 3/14....pi day! It MUST be fate!
Goddess, watch over us now! We need it! I dont care about anything, as long as my wife and our baby are healthy and happy!
I want to be better about this journal, but everything seems a little easier, if not a whole lot scarier, now!
Monday, May 28, 2007
Howdy from the land of the TWW
Alas, no BFP yet. April was too hard to blog about, so pardon my silence.
Work has been busy. The end of the year is rapidly approaching and it seems that everyone has 15 meetings that MUST occur before June. Yippee.
We are trying to sell our condo. So between that and trying to have a baby, no big stress : ).
C went through a bunch of tests and procedures....all good news. Now we wait.
In some ways it seems easier this month. I have fewer hopes, at least day 4 I do. Who knows what I'll be like day 14! Egads.
~D
Work has been busy. The end of the year is rapidly approaching and it seems that everyone has 15 meetings that MUST occur before June. Yippee.
We are trying to sell our condo. So between that and trying to have a baby, no big stress : ).
C went through a bunch of tests and procedures....all good news. Now we wait.
In some ways it seems easier this month. I have fewer hopes, at least day 4 I do. Who knows what I'll be like day 14! Egads.
~D
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Catching Up...
As it is probably easy to surmise fomr the lack of postings, Cat is not pregnant. We were disappointed, but not devastated. We were hopeful for a while, and took a few prenancy tests. When each came back we assured ourselves it was really to early to test (which it was) but the irrefutable proof came when Cat got her period.
As the next month rolled along, we ordered up some Jack and prepared to wait. Unfortunately, Cat became ill before we could inseminate. She was in the hospital for a few days, and though everything is ok now, we didn't want to risk pushing things by trying to inseminate. We were disappointed, but I was relieved that Cat was fine and that we would be able to try again soon.
Cat is due to get her period soon, and so we hope to try again at the end of the month. This month seemes to be going so slowly!!! Our very good friends just found out that they are going to have a baby...a surprise, but not an unpleasant one for them. We are so happy for them! But, of course, we are also a bit jealous. We keep reminding ourselves of how wonderful it will be when we also are pregnant because we will be able to share in this process with our friends. I am looking forward to many park trips, zoo outings, and more!
Until ovulation, we wait and hope.
As the next month rolled along, we ordered up some Jack and prepared to wait. Unfortunately, Cat became ill before we could inseminate. She was in the hospital for a few days, and though everything is ok now, we didn't want to risk pushing things by trying to inseminate. We were disappointed, but I was relieved that Cat was fine and that we would be able to try again soon.
Cat is due to get her period soon, and so we hope to try again at the end of the month. This month seemes to be going so slowly!!! Our very good friends just found out that they are going to have a baby...a surprise, but not an unpleasant one for them. We are so happy for them! But, of course, we are also a bit jealous. We keep reminding ourselves of how wonderful it will be when we also are pregnant because we will be able to share in this process with our friends. I am looking forward to many park trips, zoo outings, and more!
Until ovulation, we wait and hope.
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